I want your f*****g anger

I will not fall ill.
I have to work.
I need the money.
I need to.
I will not cry.
It hurts my eyes.
You will not make me angry.
You will not hurt me anymore.
I will never wish for you again.
I will never hope.
I will be my Own.
I don’t belong to anybody.
I won’t belong to anybody.
(Nobody wants to belong to me…or to own me?)
No.
I don’t want to belong to anybody.
I AM, alone.
I will stay that way.
It will always be my way.
I will not hurt.
I will never let anything hold me to it.
Or attach me.
I don’t need affection.
I want devotion.
Blindly.
I don’t want devotion.
I won’t treasure you anymore then.
Like you don’t treasure me.
I will not compare myself to others.
I will not find myself wanting.
I will not meet. So that I don't compare.
Shrug.
I will not call anybody.
I can’t, no money on phone.
I will pay bill on time.
I will always keep money in wallet.
I will not lose ATM card.
I will think happy thoughts.
I will try.
I need happy thoughts else Dementors' will get my soul.
I don’t want a Dementor’s kiss.
I don’t want a kiss.
I don’t need a hug.
I don’t even want to think about it.
I will not make arsehole of myself.
I will not call myself arsehole.
I will not cry.
It hurts my eyes.
I will not fall ill.
I will not call Ma.
I will hurt you back. Now.