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June 16, 2008

Not scared to be me

So the latest reader-development in this blog was the ‘coming out’ of our very own ‘N’, who is now ‘Silbil’ and has thankfully reclaimed her identity as the author of Alu Chaat. Is it because she is now comfortable being ‘herself’? Or is it because while leading us to her blog, she still remains as anonymous to us/ readers/world, as she was before? Are you and I on the internet because while it let’s us connect with people, it keeps us safe and anonymous behind a wall (or monitor)? All those who exclusively blog about their lives, are they writing the absolute truth or the versions of the truth they want us to hear? And above all, when you read, comment or blog, is it because you want the world to know you and your thoughts or because you can hide the ‘real’ you?

This article talks about "coming out" on the Internet and flashing your individuality. It was the cover story for What’s Hot (The Times Of India), published on September 8, 2006.

Not Scared To Be Me

Sexy photographs, smart profiles. Fans, friends. Stalkers, networkers. Everyone has attitude and everyone’s wired in. Jhoomur Bose logs in to the World Wide Web…

"Want to know some of the effects of losing my anonymity? (a) All my friends now know how often I masturbate, what turns me on, and how obsessed with sex I am. (b) As does everyone I’ve ever worked with in the film industry. (c) As do my cousins, aunts and uncles as well. Beat that. (Not literally. Yuck.) (d) My sex drive has gone kaput. Having something sleazy printed about me in a national newspaper, with photographers sitting on my and my parents’ doorstep didn’t make me horny, it made me stressed, anxious, and lack sleep for ten days. (e) I cannot write on the blog, as I once did. Right now, I don’t know how, or in what capacity, I can write on here again. Thanks very f*****g much for outing me, you bastards."

Above is an excerpt from the August 26 entry on ‘Girl With A One Track Mind’, the blog recently published as an eponymous book. The blogger-author called herself ‘Abbey Lee’, till a newspaper reported her ‘real’ identity was ‘Zoe Margolis’. Her life isn’t the same. Zoe was doing the same thing as a million others: using the Internet and its promise of (some sort of) anonymity to either live out a fantasy or aspects of their lives unacceptable to society. Zoe’s isn’t the only case. Recently there were stripper and call girl Mimi and Belle de Jour, respectively, whose anonymous blogs (sex, life and perspective) have been published as books. Zoe, Mimi, Belle… they sought cyberspace for its ‘no identity, no problem’ philosophy.

But there are also those who couldn’t care less about anonymity and flaunt their identities. They don’t want to live out fantasies—they want to be themselves. Their profiles scream ‘I, me, myself'. The new Netizen is part of an e-junta (complete with picture and profile) and s/he wants to be known—worldwide.

"40 countries, 12 boats, 37 flights, 46 assholes and over a year later... Writing, avoiding...and campaigning for immigrants whilst musing on anal sex and pissing off the religious right." —Introduction on Mimi, a New York stripper’s non-anonymous blog

READ ME, KNOW ME, LOVE ME

“We are not scared of ‘what will the world think of me’ anymore. It’s liberating to put forth your point and have many more responding to that point. It’s amazing to see so many varied opinions people have. It allows you, if needed, to change your thinking." —Vertika Yadav, PR consultant

A profile screams, “If I like you, I’ll be good to you.” Porn site? No, the author’s attitude towards “those who don’t have the patience to read what I have to say.” Sofi says, “I write about things people shy away from, so there are many who come just to check me out.” And her site? What? She doesn’t want it printed, for it will bring unnecessary attention! “I’m not ashamed of what I have to say. But it’s for the like-minded people I want to reach out to.” Reaching out to like-minded people, forming communities based on shared interests, meeting other members… the Internet user transitions from Anonymous to Affable!

There are some who still want to remain anonymous, and some of them don’t even write sex blogs. The reason? Fear of ridicule. Take Piali Sharma. She wants to join a networking site, but with an assumed name and no picture. Why join at all? “My anonymity gives me access to people’s innermost thoughts, which they might not reveal if they knew who I was. That apart, I’m basically shy and don’t really want to go all out… How do you know how people will react to what you say?” Some people don’t put up their pictures either for fear of being recognised — writing nasty comments about your boss with your picture up there WILL get you into trouble! — or for fear of the pictures being misused. Damn you, digital demons.

But the new flamboyant breed takes the Net to the next level. They are not scared of revealing themselves, of speaking their minds, of uploading their mug-shots. They will party at night with ‘real’ friends and log-in the morning after to describe the fun they had. For some, it’s the thrill of meeting new people. For others, it’s about putting ideas out there—for those who agree and for those who disagree. Says Piali, “It requires a certain character to bare it all. That’s not me. Neither can I handle so many ‘friends’. I’m more the one-friend type.” For better or for worse, the Internet gives you the chance(s) to forge a broader circle of acquaintances in a time when finding and maintaining meaningful friendships is getting tougher.

"It’s the time of collaboration and sharing and it’s booming as humans inherently want to connect." —Satish Warier, manager, menwhopause


SINGLE PEOPLE, ALONE TOGETHER?
"My profile has not been made to impress you. If you don't like it you are more than welcome to leave." —From the online scrapbook of a feisty female, in response to the usual "Will you be my frand" query on networking sites.

And so, we the people, are connecting and the global village is shrinking to a global neighbourhood. Yet, ironically, dissident voices blame the Internet for a not-so-pleasant phenomenon: social isolation. In June 2006, an authoritative study in American Sociological Review found that the average American had only two close confidants, down from an average of three in 1985.

Basically, the Americans and the rest of the world has fewer ‘real life, close friends.’ But isn’t loneliness part of life today—with or without the Internet? “Alone-in-a-crowd has become the norm,” says psychiatrist Dr Jitendra Nagpal. True too, what with people living thousands of miles away from home, when social and professional circles merge because of 12-hour jobs and commuting for another four and when finding time to hang out at the mall or meet friends for a stroll is tough. Suddenly, the only way for friends and family — dotted across the globe—to be together is in a virtual time zone, as bright green dots on Google Talk.

In this situation comes the saviour of the lonely planet—a dating site, a networking community, your personal blog and the tag of a 1000 ‘friends’ on your profile. Logging on is panacea. So, how then is the Internet making us asocial?

“We are communicating more but we are losing out on non-verbal, emotionally-flavoured conversation,” says Jitendra. Navin from Fropper.com differs. “Earlier, I wouldn’t get to meet people if I were working away from home. Today, I can interact daily, instantly, even share photographs, audio, video. Personal interactions are superior but infrequent. The Internet comes in to fulfil the human need for communication.”

For Erin McKean of Dressaday.com, it’s about meeting like-minded people: “The Internet is not (always) a bunch of computers talking to each other! It’s made by people, for people. In Chicago, where I live, I know barely six people who are interested in sewing to the degree I am. Online, I know over 100! The Internet makes it much easier to find people who share your interests.”
Shared interests. Time to kill. Research. Time-pass. The Internet does many things...but somewhere one wonders: is it taking us away from ‘real’ life, people and situations?

“What do you mean ‘lonely’? I have 1032 friends on Myspace!” —Blogger refuting he logs on because he is ‘lonely’

FRIENDS FOR LIFE, ADDICTED FOR LIFE 2?
“He would return from work at 10 pm, race through dinner and then log on… till 6 am! Emails, chats, webcams… I couldn’t take it anymore. People who weren’t even there were more important to him.” Radha divorced her husband because he “wanted to be online all the time”.
Priya is paranoid about her 13-year-old. “Earlier, he would meet friends in the park to play, talk, do whatever kids do. Then he discovered the Internet. Now his gang has broken up; most of them have online friends. I hate to see him gaping at the monitor, rather than playing outside.”

‘Losing’ loved ones to the Net goes beyond porn. Addictions could be any and many: gaming sites, word puzzle sites, dating sites, photography sites, horoscope sites, DIY sites… And perhaps the biggest of them all—writing your thoughts and having people read and react.

Experts say it’s about drawing your own limits. “It’s a vice if you make it a vice. Spending all your time on the Net at the cost of everything else is bad,” says Navin. Jitendra reiterates, “The moment you compromise on your day-to-day social activities, you know you are overdoing it.”

“It is a presumption that anonymity is what works with people on the Net,” says Navin Mittal, head of operations, Fropper.com. “Yes, it is important for certain services, but it is not the biggest deal. Think about it: you divulge your identity when registering for an e-mail or seeking membership to a community. Even e-mails can be tracked through IP addresses, so to say that anonymity is the Internet’s biggest draw is false. The biggest draw is the fact that the Internet really draws you closer, the fact that the Web has permeated the lives of people more so than it had about five years ago.”

And if anonymity was really that big, social networking wouldn't be making such a bang in the global and Indian cyberspace. W limits, cyberia opens a plethora of possibilities. Meet, mate, chat, catch up, show off… As long as you’re in control of your life—virtual and real—you’ll do just fine. Go on, log in!

BANG FOR YOUR BUCK

There are profiles and then there are profiles that grab eyeballs. Often it is pictures, oftener still it is a smart tag-line. A sample of some of the profile tags that ‘sell’ today:

...Would you believe everything I told you about myself?
... Independent, strong-willed, love animals, love Tolkien’s imagination, dream to have a room full of JUST books one day.
... Funny, messy, irresponsible, quick-witted guy, who thinks no end of himself!
... For those who know me, I don’t really need an intro. And for the losers who don’t know me, they can find out what they’re missing
...I have my own rules to live my life. And sometimes, just for kicks, to boost my rebellious nature I like to break them. Can you handle that?
... At heart, I am a drugged out, wasted (and obviously long-haired) hippy with a serious break from reality
... I like deep people, people whom I can’t just read off the the surface. I like to explore new tongues ;) and can speak quite a few lingos
... I want people to know who I am, and as far as my pictures go...I am not ugly!

10 comments:

silbil said...

Okay i started posting as N because i thought at that time i could have been sharing controversial info abt self.
but i didn't. but once i started posting anonymously, i got kicks out of that. it seemed special.
i don't post anonymously on any other blog.
besides this blog had more chances of being read by people i know...it is a famous blog, after all.

but i am both lazy and easily bored so got bored of it.
i am not very anonymous on aluchaat, actually...even have a picture.
protecting identity seems like too much work to me.

okay enough about me.
i have realised that once you get hooked on a blog you don't care about digging the identity of that blogger. that has an advantage that there is no shady people trying to find more than you are letting on but also has a disadvantage that then the readers start seeing you as a character in a novel. i mean i did that. i am guilty of that. there was this blog i was addicted to. a woman staying in cairo, with many children and her husband had married again and again. a polygamous situation. as i read, day after day with absolute fascination about her probls with raising children, issues with husband, other women, food she liked, house she was building, her relationship with God.i realised i knew so much about her but didn't really CARE for her...in the sense had no sympathy for her situation.
i feel guilty about it even today.
on the other hand, some of the most amazing friends i have made are because of my reading of their blogs regularly.
but really your post does bring up the most interesting topic issue ever. the permutation, combination of people who want to be anonymous, some who are screaming for attention, some who are comfortable with sharing this much and not more. blogs are the best discovery ever :D

Eve* aka JB said...

Silbil ---> without sounding like anyone's Mummyji, NOW that your blog has been linked as part of this post -- AND since you have all the time to write scholarly comments, which i do enjoy by the way -- PLEASE update your blog. Want to read what you write as well, other than comments that is. That said, don't stop participating here! haha.

DewdropDream said...

Actually, I don't think the promise of anonymity is what draws people to the internet at all. As you yourself pointed out, there are several ways of 'outing' someone. Anonymity seems to be a relative term when it comes to online presence.

I suspect however that distance is the USP of the internet. One can share so much, as much as they please, and yet never reveal all. You might build close relationships, but there is always tacit agreement that there shall always be some mystery, some veiling. In a twisted way, it's perhaps the only place where being 'two-faced' is completely acceptable. 'Two-faced' referring to the different identities one might assume, the different facets of our personality which we choose to conceal or not, 'the many people one can be' as you termed it... there is one place where one can segregate their various 'identities' (for lack of a better word), where they can sepearate their thoughts and present just what they want to be seen (Woohoo, we DO have a pensieve!), and that place happens to be the internet.

It offers a choice to be known or not, and that's all there is to it.

maxine said...

"As long as you’re in control of your life—virtual and real—you’ll do just fine. Go on, log in!"

That sounds the best idea.But understanding that line comes only with experience of some kind i guess,since we refuse to take advice in the first place.


Congrats to our 'N' on "coming out" in this blog.But then she did come out to people she felt comfortable coming out.And thats what is so nice about the internet.We can reveal ourself any moment and hide too without feeling guilty about it.No commitments to maintain.

blunt edges said...

actually i neva thot much abt dis but even i din wanna give out my name out wen i started bloggin...not dat i was postin any ultra-secret stuff ;)
was basically just writin abt fun things dat happen in my life n d works...though all aspects of anonymity hv disappeared wid many of my pals commentin wid my name as a headline...but den as i said before...i neva thot much abt dis ;)

Never Mind!! said...

I am sore looser when it comes to making friends and social interaction in the real world. I have in all like 4 people that I call real friends. I guess blogging and commenting for me is more for the sake of staying in touch with people while not risking a personal interaction. Also,it is for a chance to get involved in a nice debate/ bitch about celebrity fashion or just general conversation on demand. I dont care so much about anonymity. Although I use a pseudonym, I use my real email, post pictures and all.

Anonymous said...

y dont u post on wordpress??

Steve said...

Interesting. I think that the internet is a great medium for people to express themselves. It's the one place where no one can truly censor anybody, and in the comfort of anonymity we lose all inhibitions. Now this is a recipe for something truly interesting; what we're seeing right now is the birth of a new type of civilization, one which is more connected, yet at the same time this civilization exponentially more productive than today's prevalent order.

This accelerating change is what most people miss; you know most of the older people are actually right when they say that the world is moving too fast. The thing is that we've been brought up in a linear world where everything happens in a linear fashion, but when you add technology to the mix you get an exponential.

The rate of change in terms of new technological developments and how society advances actually doubles every 10 years; this means that in the 21st century we aren't going to experience 100 years of linear progress rather we will experience something like 20,000 years of progress (at today's rate). Trust me I know, I am betting all I have on this fact.

How exactly does this connect to the topic at hand?

Now the whole point is that our current social institutions are incapable of adapting to this rate of change. The thing that used to work for human society 50 years ago cannot work today. For e.g. psychology is still carrying forth the works of the last half century which is clearly not effective for dealing with the complex social scenario we're witnessing today. Give it enough time and you’ll find the very same observers singing a rather different tune; weren’t personal computers themselves treated like an abomination once?

Anyway, does it matter if they’re anonymous or if they’re incredibly honest about whom they are? Who believes in everything they read on the internet? I think that an anonymous person will be far more honest than the person who reveals everything because of the reason that he/she has nothing to lose. Isn’t this a good thing?

PS: I am sorry about my rather long hiatus.

Blastoff said...

hm..its fun reading ur posts..but i dunno wht to write..

Steve said...

"Think about it: you divulge your identity when registering for an e-mail or seeking membership to a community. Even e-mails can be tracked through IP addresses"

Wait, has this guy heard of TOR? And do you really need to divulge anything?

There are ways and means to get around anything; there's almost nothing constant in this online game of cat and mouse. Well almost, there is one thing that's a constant no one can censor the internet, not even the USA let alone china.